February 28, 2007
I called out once,
Twice.
Thrice.
No response.
As i was on my way to meet my friends with the intention for asking for a job interview,
I had a bad feeling from the start.
After tt,
They were supposed to play soccer and I was supposed to meet Bestie to play pool.
In the end,
We all ended up playing altogether.
Anyways.
As we were walking to tt place,
I decided, I should give it a shot.
I hadn't prepared myself for this.
But something tells me,
To go and find out the outcome.
At least i had done my best.
And i tried.
In the best possible manner.
Knowing and realising tt i was only making a fool out of myself,
I turned away,
And the tears just kept coming.
I know,
Friends come and go.
But this was one friendship i never thought could be gone like the wind.
I never had any grudges now,
And as i went to play pool with "ooops" and sya and bestie.
He was so kind.
To put his arms around my shoulders and stood there beside me while i cried.
Thnks, oops.
The greatest friend i always looked up to.
And so we met Bf.
Having heard what happened,
He stood there motionless, helpless.
And i realised,
Tt it's ok,
Someday,
You'll realise, I hope.
One thing tt's for sure.
I am proud to say tt me, being a GIRL.
Had the GUTS to stand there infront of a GUY and called out the name.
All i wanted to say was a sorry.
It wouldn't hurt if you had looked up, at least.
I only had the best intentions.
Whatever beguns in anger ends in shame.
And for a Guy to be so swelled up in your own deep hole emotions and brooding about what had happened.
There's nothing much i can do.
I tried, I did.
But some things just can't be mended again.
It hurts so bad.
The longer I live the more I see that I am never wrong about anything,
And that all the pains that I have so humbly taken to verify my notions have only wasted my time.
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