February 20, 2007
There are no classes in life for beginners :
Right away you are always asked to deal with what is most difficult.
Friendships hanging on the line,
I almost lost my love.
Which I did.
And had to beg.
Some may think I was crawling back.
Actually, only one friend of ours in particular.
Yes,
Because now.
I realised that losing you was the most hollow empty - bitch feeling I've felt in a really long time.
Loving someone else (well, at least i thought so) for practically my whole secondary school life was a mistake.
A big bullshyt mother - effing mistake.
And I realised it only now?
Well done.
But only You know how i feel now though others may doubt it.
It's ok.
I had a fantasy once.
Somehow,
It came true.
But then i opened my eyes again and POOF.!
It's gone.
The only thing i had learnt from this was that.
What had happened in the past, happened.
No matter how much and how hard you try to think of having it back,
Even when you have it in your hands now,
You won't ever get that same feeling that you had before.
And so bygones are bygones.
Time passes, people change.
There is no point turning back.
Because there's really NOTHING to look at anymore.
It's all in the mind.
I LOVE AZAHARI,
That's it, it's final.
And no other sweet words will ever make me fall again into that emotional hole so deep that was only real like a hundred years back.
Ok, what i had just said was totally dramatic and long, i know.
But I meant every word of it.
The whole of life is but a moment of time.
It is our duty, therefore to use it, not to misuse it.
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