March 27, 2007
Oh can i say something?
This moment is the maddest feeling i've ever felt so far in the crappy year of 2007.
Ok,
So i was in the computer room reading a book,
Brother on the other hand was playing his PSP.
Okay? Note this.
I was doing something USEFUL.
He was degenerating his brain cells day by day with tt stupid portable hand game thing.
So mother went out of her room.
And walked towards him,
And asked him oh so nicely,
"Eysham, where is the rokok?"
I was concentrating on my book.
She turned, saw what i was doing.
And yelled.
YELLED, tt's right.
"SHEILA! pergi sembahyang lah how many times must i remind you to pray?"
Uhh. Excuse Me?
I just stared at her, blankly.
Huh?
How come the sudden tone of coldness to Me?
This isn't the first time it's been many times this happened.
I couldn't keep my patience anymore.
I frowned.
Then i had to speak out.
"Why isit you always remind me to go and pray? When my bro is here and you don't remind him at all?"
And my anger rose,
Because i recalled the times when she kept asking me to pray and my brother was THERE, right infront of her doing things tt are USELESS,
YET,
she don't say anything?
Anything at all?
You gotta be kidding me.
And she responded,
"Don't get other people involved!"
But it's true isn't it?
This is one thing unfair, if by now y'all don't understand what i've been babbling about.
WHY IS IT THAT SHE TALKED TO ME RUDELY, FIERCELY FORCING ME TO DO SOMETHING WHICH I WILL DO JUST ABIT LATER AFTER I'M DONE DOING SOMETHING USEFUL LIKE READING A GOD DAMN BOOK?
and?
WHY IS IT THAT SHE TALKED TO HIM SO NICELY, SMILEY, NOT FORCING HIM TO DO SOMETHING WHILE HE IS DOING SOMETHING DAMN FUCKING USELESS LIKE PLAYING THE STUPID PSP FOR HOURS!
haiz.
I'm really sad.
What is this,
Some favouratism goin around in this house?
I have no freedom outside already,
She took that AWAY from me,
Now you wanna take my freedom at HOME?
God this is ridiculous.
I know you want me to be a good daughter bla3 Don't you want your son to be that way too?
and he's OLDER some more he should start even EARLIER than me?
I am trying to understand and see the sense in all of this but i just simply couldn't.
WHAT IS IT TT YOU CAN'T ANSWER MY QUESTION?
WHY FORCE ME, AND THEN TALK RUDELY?
And i'm not kidding, rudely.
Irritably.
Very, irritating.
What's the deal with acting the total opposite arnd my own sibling?
Fuck.
I really have no freedom in anything at all.
And i don't know what's the deal with her,
Like i said,
I don't know what your exact reasons are,
But i said it before.
People like HER demand the freedom of speech to make up for the freedom of THOUGHT which she AVOIDS.
PERIOD.
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