June 24, 2007
4 am already & i didn't even realise it.
Today went ter JB with mom and cousins.
So fun meeting them.
I have this family feeling mood only like once in a blue moon.
How sad.
Anyhows.
I bought the cards "Donkey" with cuzz.
Had a dollar left & it was dollar.
Felt like a small kid.
I wish I could press rewind to when i was P6.
Study harder and go to another secondary school.
It has felt like ages since I left Northland but the memories were great.
Some.
Most, suck.
I would have studied harder,
Go to another school,
And live a life there.
But of course,
I'm pretty glad I can't rewind things.
Wouldn't have met bf.
But maybe, life would have been better for us.
He'd won't have sleepness nights thinking how to make things right.
I won't have sleepless nights thinking about such worthless things like these right now.
Oh well.
Thinking about life.
I can't wait to fast forward.
To the point where I don't think about bloody emo kiddies inside but act like they're not on the outside.
Help was offered but it was not taken.
Just plain nothingness.
Meaningless friendships.Fuck that.
Mahes's rule number one, Sheila.
Keep thinking about his rule number one & follow it.
I shall.
All the way.
Life is not a matter of chance.
It is a matter of choice.
It is not a thing to be waited for,
It is a thing to be achieved.
I know to this point right now,
I've achieved what I wanted.
TRUE friends.
a GREAT bf.
A study life tt leads me to what I want to be in the future.
But I have yet to achieve something.
Not a normal life, but a great one.
And I shall.
Positively.
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