June 12, 2007
I changed my blog add but then I decided not to.
Hm.
4.57AM.
Talked to Mahes for like, two hours?
And phone battery went dead.
Alot has been going on lately.
I sometimes wonder why life has to be so dramatic.
Or maybe I made it sound too dramatic.
Whatever.
It is, for me.
Maybe I should follow his rule number One.
And Two.
Also, doing the 'test' for a week.
But it'll work?
Maybe.
Mother told me last night to not worry about my friendships so much.
And wants me to excel in life, with my studies.
Then when that happens, I can choose to do whatever I want to later on.
And then the topic about a boyfriend came in.
She doesn't care whether rich or poor,
Good looking or not,
She just wants me not to get stressed.
With a good soul & great character.
Which I have found.
I was dying for to tell her about what I had just gone through lately.
Which I can never do,
Because she wouldn't understand.
I wish I could tell her.
But the one thing I was so happy about was that she didn't care who I chose to be with.
She just wanted me to be happy.
Anyways.
School is starting next week.
I can hardly wait actually because i am freakin' bored at home.
And his birthday is coming up soon.
Which I hope I can make it as a memorable one.
Oh, yes.
I shall not force myself anymore.
Yes, I may have dyed hair.
I speak English at home.
I have quite an easy life financially.
But that doesn't mean I do not understand the difficulties in life,
To not know my religion, my limits as a being,
To not know what is the basic need which is respect.
I am not a hooligan who for e.g. goes clubbing, drink, whatever tt is over the limit.
So why treat me like one?
Seriously, do not judge anything by its look.
Because looks can be deceiving.
When I think back,
I have been what I have always been.
And i don't need to change entirely just to please.
Maybe time is needed to see who I am as a person,
Not for who I am expected to be.
I can only change so much.
And I did.
Or maybe,
I should just relax and live my life.
Hey, i'm barely 17.
Don't expect me to have a 25 year old thinking.
But i do know that I have habits which I need to change.
Which i think i already have,
So,
All i can hope for is for it to be seen.
God is great, isn't he?
He'll make it come around.
Thoughts lead on to purposes, purposes go forth in action.
Actions form habits, habits decide character.
And character fixes our destiny.
So we shall see.
I just hope ten years down the road,
Everything will be okay & i will just look back on this and laugh.
Okay long entry.
Enough said.
Now They're Choosing Sides. At 4:57 AM
